some people need to let things lie

hello and welcome to the world stupid contest and the award goes to..... me!!!

jesus christ i took him back thats why .... and he dumps me again after 3 months

ok so it was a couple of weeks ago but im sick of people asking me who,what,when,where and why and doesnt it bother me... its only bothering me now because people wont shut up about it

i have honestly had to come to a realisation... sometimes friends make everything worse and make you overthink things wayy too much.

maybe im being stupid, wouldnt be the first time... he said he cant give me the commitment and attention i deserve, then goes around and chases girls who dont look at him twice... idiot

guess im a bigger one though. i actually thought we would go past 3 month but we didnt, im so naiive and so stupid for actually believing that we would. he tells me he loves me then 2 days later dumps me. i am so sick of putting my head and my heart in the firing line just to get hurt again... should just play a game of russian roulette with the guy. it would be way less painful than all of this. he wants me to be his friend and i am in a way but another part of me just wants to slap him and bring his head back down to earth. it just seems that we were going to work this time and we didnt.

well some of my friends will be happy to know that im not doing it again i just want to stop this pain... maybe im better off on my own, or atleast not being with a lad that will treat me like this. hes admitted to being a commitaphobe but i said i guessed already like 2 month ago and i could try and help and he does this... im over him i just needed somewhere to vent seeing as my friend brought it up AGAIN!!